The Nightmare of Borderline Personality Disorder and Narcissism

INTRODUCTIONI have been watching the Johnny Depp / Amber Heard trial in its entirety, live as it streams. It’s a horrifying thing to watch, from my perspective, and you’ll learn why after reading this. There were two incidents in particular that triggered panick in my gut that I hadn’t felt since 1998. I’m going to

Connection Criteria

INTRODUCTIONSA part of me wants to avoid human connections at all cost, save for the ones that I have already. They’re not toxic or dangerous. Gaining these friends was no small feat, as it required me to go through a sea of horrific people. On average, I gained one genuine friend every decade. Based on

Depression: Life, Clarity, and Perception

INTRODUCTIONWhen one has a combination of Major Depressive Disorder and a very late Level 1 Autism diagnosis, their view of life and the world can be very dark. Guilty, as charged. The only way out of this dark hole involves years of therapy, years of hard work, and sometimes medication. In my case, all three

On Feeling Important

INTRODUCTIONI was watching a YouTube video that was a collection of TikTok shorts, where women talk about how awesome they are, and how they no longer need men. Their words were one thing, but their delivery was very peculiar. Their delivery, facial expressions, and posture told a different story of smug arrogance and a high

Hoovering: The Narcissist’s 4th Phase

INTRODUCTIONIn the past, I have written about three primary phases of a relationship with a Narcissist. To review: Love-Bombing: The Narcissist tells you how wonderful and fantastic you are. Devalue: The Narcissist declare that you cannot do anything right. Discard: When they believe they are done getting their Narcissistic supply from you, they throw you

A Big Sign of Healing

This entry isn’t going to have sections, and it could be brief. After sitting down to write, I remembered that I had some draft writings saved. So I went to check those out, and there were FOUR recently written drafts. They were very long and included some anecdotes to serve as warnings of situations where

Relationships and Moving Too Fast

INTRODUCTIONI think that everyone has heard the phrase “moving too fast” when talking about relationships. Typically, this is within the context of romantic relationships, with regard to sexual activity. This is a distraction. Having sex with someone before you know them is very risky. You don’t know what’s going on with them, and they don’t

Three Tales of Future Faking [Narcissism]

INTRODUCTIONI watched Dr. Ramani’s video about 11 Tactics for Not Allowing Narcissists Into Your Life in the First Place, and shared the video in the link. These are issues that she lists off as “gatekeeper” boundaries to set for additional safety and protection from Narcissists. She mentioned one thing that struck a particular tone with

11 Tactics for Not Letting Narcissists Into Your Life in the First Place [Dr. Ramani]

Dr. Ramani is a great resource for anyone who is dealing with a Narcissist in their lives, or who have suffered Narcissistic abuse in the past. This video gets straight to the point. If you want to learn more from a seasoned professional, then I do recommend Dr. Ramani.

A Word About Flying Monkeys, and More Details on My Narcissist Experiences

NOTE: I give a political example of Narcissism and Flying Monkeys early in this document. However, I get into other examples beyond that. This is NOT a political post. That said, when writing about Narcissists and Flying Monkeys, this particular event in American History is impossible to ignore. INTRODUCTIONIn the past, I have written about